It's Tuesday night. I'm surfing the net. Does anybody even say that anymore? I'm sipping tea, eating an apple, and waiting for my favorite show, Parenthood to come on, while reflecting upon my not-so-great day. It was an unproductive day at work, full of meetings that lasted too long, followed by coming home late to a sick husband and a toddler who was {literally} screaming for my attention by calling out "Mommy" fifty billion times. I can't even bring myself to type it, because quite frankly, there is no other sound in the world, not even crashing waves and seagulls, that sounds as "Mommy".
I'm cranky. I hate feeling this way.
I just want to sneak into my baby girl's room and watch her sleep and listen to the sound of her little breath as she has sweet dreams into the morning light. God, I love this kid! Lately I've been feeling that I don't get enough time in the day with her. I'm always rushing around in the morning to get into the shower and do my makeup and get to work on time when really, all I really want to do is snuggle my girl on the couch in our jammies every day and watch her favorite show, The Backyardigans! And then when I come home I'm rushing around to get dinner on the table, clean up from dinner, bathe Molly, get ready for the next day, etc., etc. Disclaimer: My husband is a big help and most nights cooks dinner and cleans up dinner while I play with Molly and give her a bath. Then he plays with Molly and I do other stuff, like put on a load of laundry and get ready for the next day. Sometimes we play as a family. It's all kinds of cooky fun!
This working mother gig is crap.
Ok, time for my cranky rant to be over and for me to head to the couch to watch my show, alone, while my husband, baby girl and dog dream away and get their much needed rest.
Here's hoping that tomorrow will be a better day...
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2 comments:
I hear ya! I feel like this all the time. I think it's because of the un-written rule that dad's can get away with just spending time with their kids (although, it sounds like both yours and mine are good about cooking, etc), and moms have 100000 other households things to take care of, in addition to their child. Hang in there!
You are totally allowed to be cranky (especially after a day like yours)!! Know how much you are admired for being so 'real'. I am so impressed by you and your honesty and for doing everything with grace, even when it's hard.
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